Outside my window. I feel its a bit symbolic of how December has started out for me. Today I am thinking some big thoughts, learning some hard lessons, and asking God to help me know my role and not stray from it. I feel like I am constantly fighting a dark cloud. Not depression, not sadness, not anxiety, but I feel like I am pushing against something spiritual. The moment I take a step forward a dark cloud pushes me a step back. Where does that leave me? Right where I started.
I may have to write a manifesto. If I do, l’ll let you know. Maybe I’ll even post it here.
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write it girl.
I second that.
could it be the cloud of Presence? Not to overspiritualize… and I know Kenya is right around the corner so I can imagine you are in the trenches (prayin for ya!)
Look… Neither the pillar of cloud by day nor the pillar of fire by night left its place in front of the people. Ex 13.22… Whether by day or by night, whenever the cloud lifted, they set out…Num 9.21…Then Solomon said, “The LORD has said that he would dwell in a dark cloud…” 1 Kings 8.12
Just some random thoughts… your blogs always make me think 🙂 Love ya girl!