I have an old friend who decided years ago to stop talking to me. We had a falling out, said things we didn’t mean, and unforgiveness set in… not on my part, but on the part of my friend. I tried several times to reconcile, to make things right. And it saddens me to this day that this person was hard towards me and unwilling to reconcile. Its really hard when friendships end. And sometimes, despite your most sincere efforts, people close to you in life will stubbornly with hold forgiveness from you. Many friendships do end. But some end like a break up. Someone one minute is an active part of your life, and the next you are cut off without hope for closure or reconciliation.
Has anyone else been in this situation? And if so, how have you delt with it? 5 years later, the reality of my own situation still causes me pain.
At first, I mourned the loss. But not long after this forced divide, my life started to change in signifigant ways. I am not quite sure this old friend of mine would even recognize me today. Its been close to 5 years since we’ve spoken. But regardless of the time passed, the experiences missed, and the love lost, I still think of this friend with fondness and wonder, if ever, we may rekindle our friendship.
Maybe so, maybe never. But tonight, I wonder what if.